well, it's easier to be numb when the hope's gone. 

you can sink down with your pride and find it cold to hold.

but your heart has finally shut up - broken in the corner 

your brain is quiet

but the memories are flooding around you.

making you smile through the tears. 

i did this, i get to live with it.

i get to hold myself together.

but for now i'll lay here

and just wish to forget.